I want him to be happy

[stilllookingup]

oh hey T1000 Thanks for stopping by. No I haven't. We don't have kids so if he doesn't initiate contacting me we go dim for a long time. I really don't think it's a good idea for me to text him.

My WAS shows great remorse whenever we talk and that's really painful to me. If we even ever R, I would not want him to come back out of guilt. I want him to come back because he truly wants to. If not it's never gonna work.

We, LBS feels so resentful sometimes for what WAS have put us through that we want to make them fell guilty for what they've done (familiar with your sitch, eh? T1000? but now I kind of understand there's no point in doing that.

Maybe this weekend I'm thinking of driving to a city where we got married. There is a nice harbor and a park I can walk around. I'm gonna bring my good camera and just take pictures. Of course I'm not gonna tell him or mention it to anyone really.
I do not want to feel resentful of the recent discovery and I'm really trying. I think going back to where it all started would make me feel calmer.