Hi Nero- good to hear from you. We are really doing this aren't we? Soon it will be one yr on this site, we are kindred spirits!
Last night @ midnight H called me to wish me happy b-day, like 3x he said it and apologized for his lack of interest in b-days ever since he can remember. He came home this morning in-between gigs, and gave me 3x kisses, with a full explanation of how he goes to the lake to rest between gigs.
He's giving me more accounting info, and attention, but he's yet to tell me he has quit EA (I found out). Last time he tried this he told me and said, ''I shouldn't be telling you this because this is my thing I have to work out''.
It's not about her, I have to continue to learn how not to act or treat him based on EA, this is "my" R with him, however it turns out, what ever happens between us, it is only about us!
I'm just going to continue to let him feel his way around how to treat me, and how to act around me, he's been making an effort to be polite and thankful. I expect nothing, hope for nothing and I will stay as neutral as humanly possible.
I dropped the rope some time ago and will continue forward w/my efforts to be independent of him emotionally. I do still teeter further on the side of S, maybe even D, but I too need to take it slow and steady.
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
