Steve, I'll echo PM and spartan's comments. You've got to back away...your emotions are running high, you are hurt, scared, and you are lashing out. That is counter-productive if you are wanting to save the M.
Are you exercising? For me, it was a huge help in centering myself. What are you doing for you? Any old hobbies you want to pick up again? What is something you've always wanted to try but didn't?
It wasn't long ago I felt like I was constantly spinning...things seemed out of control. You have to focus on you and GAL. You have to find YOU again....and with that, you'll find some calmness, some peace, and likely, some clarity.
