I agree. I don't think you were horrible. I don't know if it'd be a food idea to plant the word in her head. Like gabbysmom said I don't know about "forgive me" or "is there anything I can do" either.

I like the holding hands though. If my H apologize for anything to me like that I'd be really shocked (in a good way)

M37 H36
M8 T12 inc 3yr L-dist
7/12:H broke down
10/12:H dad D frm W4. BD soon after
1/13:H wants to leave
2/13:H gpa passed. Feels closer but H still leaving
3/13: S begins