Kenva...I am in a similar boat. I just caught a glimpse of my soon to be presented D paperwork. She had it in her car that I was cleaning for her "girls weekend" trip this weekend.
I have been doing really good with DB, 180s, and LRT...and she has been...warmer, if thats not too strong a word. Meaning she hasnt been completely hostile. Now I see that was all a front.
I thought I was accepting of my fate...but that pit in my stomach is back.
Hang in there brother
Me-45,W-36 M-12 yrs, T-15 years SS- 16 Nov 2003 Initial B date, 2-3 others since EA/PA OM 2003-2004 Reconciled 2004 May 2013 Final BD, W completely detaches W files D June 2013 I am moving out 26 July 2013