I know you really want W to come around, but do you think she ever will? When? It doesn't sound to me like she will anytime soon. Maybe cutting her loose will wake her up. Nobody knows.
Best wishes.
I am not sure what she wants or if she will ever come around.But i dont want to loss hope the the Lord God can make changes in anyone. I just know or feel this will take a long time and just well still hurt bad over this. one would think i would not hurt still bad still.
My stomach is so bad and upset just feel sick most the time. It could be at this point that i have to move by the 31st and have no place to go yet. For some reason i just can not commint to anything at this point. Also have no help moving my stuff. I am mostly out but no one to help with the big stuff.
I know this is stupid but need to take it has a little hope tell me is im just wrong and stupid.
I text my WAW just telling her to get out enjoy the warm weather. that God has given her alot to offer the ones around her and hope her job is getting better. i did say I love you to her.
Most time her reply is none or just TY. but this time i was suprised that she said "TY Right back attcha ya" she always used to say that to me in the past when things were good. not sure it mens anything but whatever.
I am so messed up im taking it as a god thing. I pray every day for a little hope and for help to know what way to go. I did talk to lawyer yesterday and what i left with was to stay with what im doing. there was no real reason why to file separation. but it was up to me. I guess my hope with it was I could try and force WAW to come talk to me about what she wants. But to be honest If i had to guess i do not think she really knows I know she is hurting and having a problem with money as i have had to pay car to get it caught up.
All i do is try to be nice to her and well my step daughter. we talk all the time and she even call me to get her to Dr as she was not feeling well at all.she has a girl infection.
Why she called me and not her mom to get her to Dr i do not know. But i had to pay everything for her the kid has no money. I know her mom has no idea that i have been there for step daughter. I wish some one would tell her this way she will see the the changes i have made are real. But it still all hurts and maybe at this point im just nuber the gun and have misdirected feelings because of the move and having no home to go to. I feel like all of WAW family will just not see me anymore and not be in contact. then stop on there way home to work and they beep everyday going past my house. Im going to miss all that now..
Life is sucking and im getting tired. I just need a place to live first. feel like WAW is doing better than i am with having a place to live and cant confirm but having her lover with her. Why does she still not want to talk to me and say she is still angry. but what about my feelings and what she is doing to me. I just feel dead and sometimes wish i was just to stop the pain.
