Hit hard still taking another step forward.

[T1000]

It feels quite strange posting this apology on here. It feels needy and pursuing.

I think this covers it all, I plan on asking her for a word in the other room, take both her hands, look her in the eye and say:

"I deeply regret how I treated you. I am so sorry.
There is no excuse. I hate what I did and I don't want to do that to you ever again.
I value our relationship, what can I do to make this right?

Will you forgive me?"

I have never done something like this before with W. This could a total 180 in the way I do it.
I would always have apologised with space between us in the past. I might have needed to apologize before but never with being as close as I could.
Never with touch and full eye contact.
I always felt like I didn't have permission to do that unless we were getting on.
She might pull away and I will just have to accept that and carry on.

I find it hard to say what her apology language is.
The only thing I can think of is, when others have wronged her she wants that person to come to her in person and say sorry for what they did.