If she were anyone else, and you behaved in a way you were ashamed of, would you consider a brief apology the right thing to do?
Behave the right way, be the person you want to be, and when you mess up handle it with dignity and character...independent of her.
Is shouldn't matter at all how you think she feels or what you think she wants to hear or how you think she'll feel about whether you apologize or not, or any of the other possible pretzels your brain can turn this into.
This is not about her, it's about you, and who you are.
Does that help?
Yes it does help. It can be confusing sometimes because on here a lot of the time we are supposed todo what is counterintuitive. When I think I should apologize I'm sort of waiting for someone to say: You shouldn't do abc, because of xyz.
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