I'm feel flat today. I met with my attorney yesterday to discuss my counter-offer. I am so done with this. It doesn't feel good to be battling with the father of my children. How did we get here? How can he tell me that I'm a wonderful person one minute and try and screw me in the D the next? Is thus the ultimate in compartmentalization? I just want to be secure and raise my kids.
My life just isn't working right now. I have stress in too many areas.
I'm having one of those days where my heart just hurts over all that has happened. I miss my family. I feel so bad for my kids. I'm having a hard time letting go completely. I find that deep inside I still want to be loved by my H. I don't share those feelings because people would wonder what in the world is wrong with me. I've gone over this in my mind for months. I've prayed about it. Is there something wrong with me or do I truly love my H no matter what? I do believe it would be easier to move on, but I can't picture doing it. I just don't see someone else in my H's place, in my heart or in my physical world.
