That's what I meant by "I AM going to do it"
Do it for me. I do not like the way I feel. I need to do it to protect my emotional self.
I will say what Mach wrote as that is something he has told me as well.
Maybe I miss interpreted it before but I told her I would not speak of OM or her emotional problems as that was not my place. We do great when we are just talking about life in general or our son or joking about things.
But then it always lead to talking about us somehow.
I really do believe if she would agree and want to go to MC that we would have a good chance with some good guidance and direction. The good thing is SHE has stated that when we go that mean la she wants to work on it and she knows that she has to cut off all contact with OM.
Until then I think I need to cut off all communication except for what has to be said for my own good and where I feel I am at this point.
It's definitely for me, not to punish her


M 37 W 30
S 7
Together 10 years
Married 9 years
BD: 12/12/12(W filed same day)
I moved to apartment 1/11/13
W and S moved to MIL 1/11/13
Peicing: 6/3/13
Reconciled: 7/2013
BD2: 4/20/16
still working on it