Well they are facetiming on their Itouch so it isn't like he can see me or me him anyway. I think at first I didn't want to hear his voice but then I sort of felt like an evasdropper you know?? They need to find their own relationship without my intervention. H does call the boys every day and at first I tried to talk to him or give the boys things to share with him. Tell Dad about blah blah blah. I have really stepped back and I don't think its a negative. They now have a relationship and memories with H that I am not a part of anymore. That is the way H wants it.
Now when I do talk to him I am always positive and happy and full of stuff we are doing fun. So I don't know if that is right or wrong but it feels the best for me right now. I am putting my feelings first well after the kids but before H!
He only wants to talk to me when he needs something anyway. Let him figure it out on his own. Now if he wants to talk about the kids I will tell him whatever but I am done being the one to tell him what is going on with them. He made his choice so he has to live with it.
Just dropping in.. Nothing new here same old same old. H and I havent talked in ages. We finally have a mediation date set but get this its for JULY......... Apparently between his L and my L that was when they culd agree on a mediator. I don't thing anything will come of it because there is no way I am going to agree to send the boys to the UK in the summer for 5 weeks. not without a fight. If we can't agree on that then we have to go to court. That should be interesting....
H hasn't sent any money for the kids since Jan. Guess he could care less if they have a place to live and food to eat.
I went on a date last night... very weird... If this is what dating is like now I might just get a cat. So no interested in a 2nd date and he has been texting me all day.
