I really stepped on it, and am asking for help

[SFC_Swede]

PS...Diving changed myself...dramatically. I am so much more aware, and in touch with everything. It provides me a peace that is hard to describe. I also have always liked teaching, which is one reason I loved being an NCO in the Army.

I am in Pennsylvania, so trust me, I understand the weather. I am actually heading to our dive site this weekend with students, and the weather forecast is for the mid 70s and overcast. The water temperature is around 50. So even with a 7mm wetsuit..its gonna be cold. I just dont have the $2500 for a dry suit right now like most of the other instructors. I have been dumping all of my extra cash in my dive certifications, education, and gear.

As for W ad I...its been a quiet week. She avoids me 99% of the time, and the few times we did talk, I let her do the talking. It was usually about our S, or things that need to be done. So while things are more evened out compared to last Saturday...I still dont see any crack in the armor.

Continuing to LRT, and just live my life. Have 8 students in the pool tonight, so have that to get me out of the house.

Going to be hard this weekend with W doing her girls weekend down the shore. Will do my best to think of other things, other than her hanging at Secrets drinking and picking up some random dude. Because its been over a month...and we arent doing it.