It has little to do with H and everything to do with my own guilt from not feeling like I'm doing enough for dds. I'm beginning to build resentment from having to do everything on my own. And (ding ding ding) we briefly touched on this topic last night at MC. MC asked about our dynamic and described how everything went through me in family... he asked how that was for H & he said "easy, I didn't have to think about anything. I'd just ask reb". And I said "and that built resentment in me". And that resentment bit me in the a$$ tonight.
I need to put this on the back burner and let MC lead us through this.
Good: I lost my $hit for only a few hours tonight. This would've turned into a few days or week before. Mostly because, in our old life, H would still be gone, either physically working or non-engaging presence.
I'd still like to know how other co-parents do visitation with older kids that don't care and H that is in a bad habit of not stepping up to the plate.
