Don't do that. Your business is your livlihood. You don't want to end up broke.
"We have appointments for today, that I just don't want to deal with. I don't want to face him either."
Suck it up. As hard as it is, you can't let your business suffer.
"Do I reply to his text? if so, what do I say?"
No.
"Now that I have done what I have done, what do I do."
Nothing.
"I am trying to be dim, but hard to do and work together. He notices that I end the convo's early, and he wonders what "work" I do all day when I am not contacting him."
From your threads I don't see where you say he "wonders". He may ask out of politeness, but now to the point where he wonders about you.
"He mentioned that he was surprised that I did give him the space that he asked for, he was surprised that I could do it."
Good.
"I said that I had no other choice."
Bad. Don't you see how just by saying that you put all the blame back onto him? Do you really think he needs or wants a guilt trip from you? Will that attract him back to you? You should have told him that you understood that he needed space and that you just want him to have peace. Stop interjecting your own needs into this.
"Mr. Bond, I am still on meds and cannot afford a therapist."
Try to get one.
"And yes, I am the doormat... afraid to do anything to stand up for myself for fearing of disappointing him and/or making him mad... like NOW."
No you're not. I don't know how many times I can explain this to you. Your "fear" of not doing the right thing isn't because of him. It's because of YOU. You're insecure and are constantly looking and asking for validation. Just like you're doing on here. TO YOU, you don't think that you get appreciated enough, so you do something else and constantly ask for validation. But when someone doesn't express it in a way that YOU WANT, you say that they don't understand or that you're under appreciated.
Just from your responses here, it is VERY evident and I wish you could afford to see a T to see that it's not just my opinion.
"I will "ACT AS IF"... because I deserve better!"
See that's the WRONG attitude. You act "as if" because you want to respect his wanting space. You keep making about yourself and YOUR needs.
"Should I go remove/take down more of my belongings out of the house as he asked? Even if I just put it into the attic? or let him do it?"
Let him do it. You are not obligated to do anything in a home that you've been asked to vacate.
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Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
