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[steveh27]

BD: Each day is getting more clear that I have no control over this. Part of me always believed in not giving up, and that is why its hard to have my kids see this. Yes its justifying, I get that. I'm sorry I sound like Im not agreeing with you but I am. My emotions are high now because the W decided to call and ask me more about the mediation and the conversation went deeper, which led to emotions getting high and things being said in anger on both sides.

I needed to defend myself when she said I have have false expectations. Which 2 days ago I said please just do whatever you have to do to make YOU happy. As the talk went on it was good but then quickly took a turn for the worse when she said that. It's hard because you try not to show that your hurting but they sense it in something you say or the way you say it. She is crystal clear about moving on, so Im having a hard time convincing myself Im ok with it, even when I say the words.

She texts back after the call "i'm sorry, yelling is not going to get us anywhere. I respect ur feelings. I know ur hurt and upset. U also know how I feel. Like I said I just dont want you to have false expectations". WTF!! Say it again why dont you.

I think I wont answer this.