I've had similar feelings reb but I'm slowly coming to realize that my H is doing the best he can with the cards he was dealt. He isn't really any different than he ever was, very stoic, non-emotional, as is his family. I just filled in the missing pieces for a long time.

Your H is going to counseling, he's attempting to look inward and repair 2 very important Rs. Don't push it because this is difficult stuff, especially for those who like to deny their emotional side.

I wish you the best.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss