NILWY - There is this "chemistry" b/w us

[Kim65]

I've now been in my new "home" for 11 days. All unpacked and settling in. I've had very mixed feelings since being here, ups and downs.

I don't mind my own company as before I met H I spent a good 6 1/2 to 7 yrs on my own. I do miss H though, I miss his company, just knowing that he was sitting in the same room was comforting and hearing his voice is something that I miss. I haven't seen or heard from him in nearly 2 weeks, seems like 2 months!!... I wonder if he misses me in some small way?? I almost feel that the 8 1/2 years we spent together means nothing now, and that makes me very sad..

I'm in the process of having an agreement drawn up about the house. Therefore I will have to contact him in the next week or two with a appointment time with a solicitor.

As far as GAL, I've been out to the movies with friends, shopping for bits and pieces for the unit. Going out for tea tomorrow night, have also been invited around to a work friends home for a meal on Friday night. Saturday night I'm planning to "go out" for the first time in months. Getting back into my exercise routine as moving threw my routine out. I'm naturally a homebody and It's getting into winter weather over here so going out in the cold is not something I'm keen on.

On Saturday it will be 6 weeks until our holiday to the Cook Islands. This is giving me something positive to focus on and I am really looking forward to having some "down" time and just getting the chance to spend some "one on one" with H. At the same time I know I will need to give us both some space while we are there as well. I just want to have a gr8 time and maybe get him thinking about the women he's giving up!!.. I will be upset & disappointed if he ends up changing his mind as he has sworn that he is going... We'll wait and see if the OW has got her claws in deep enough to change his mind, despite him saying she won't???