My WAS has decided that she definitely wants to separate (although we don't have the means to do so at present) and thinks that divorce is probably the answer to.
At the same time she said that she missed sex (I assumed that she was getting it from the OM. Presumably they have split up.) I offered her "help" in that department. I just feel so damned lonely. I just needed a cuddle or hug but my w has not interest in that so I initiated ML. During the "act" she started crying. I was wracking my brain trying to think what to do or say and, in the end, ran out of time. She controlled herself and the moment was lost. I don't know if the ML was the wrong thing to do. My w grudgingly said that she enjoyed it and I didn't feel used but, at the same time, it wasn't satisfying and it didn't feel like it brought us together (not that I expected it to do).
My w has come up with some, quite frankly, bizarre comments just so that she doesn't have to live with me. I suppose as a MLCer living in the same home just doesn't give her the space she craves.
I think that she has, to a certain extent, moved on to stage 5 in her mid life crisis. She has almost completely withdrawn from me, interacts very little with the children and has even scaled down her social life. (It's been a couple of weeks since she partied until 5 or 6 and she only goes out twice a week instead of 4 or 5 times and is home reasonably early most of the time)
I must admit that last weekend was particularly strange. She is very involved in our village here but aside from her commitments concerning there she spent the whole weekend in bed stirring only to get herself some food.
It's so sad to see. She was such a happy go lucky sort of person. Always smiling and now, at home at least, she's a shadow of her former self.
Struggling a little with my PMA as I'm so jaded. Struggling to come to terms with a GAL that involves a 5 hour round trip in order to play in a football match that lasts 2 hours. With strangers. On a Sunday (less time to spend with the children). And that's not including the financial cost. I suppose it's something I have to do.
Haven't allowed my w comments to consume me but it sure has put a dampener on my mood. Oh well.
Me: 42 W: 40 M: 18 T: 20 D13 D10 S7 BD: 8/2012 Still living together
