And emotional. Bright you sound like a strong businesswoman. But that does not mean that you cannot be hurt. Personally I was totally taken off guard at how much and how long the hurt lasts.
Let yourself cry. It is supposed to be therapeutic.
I absolutely get what you say about friends. Most do not understand any of this because they have never actually gone through it or they just want you to stop hurting. That is why I have found this Board so valuable.
You are doing very well. Unless something affects your future, let your H keep talking. He is all talk and no action. Laws are different in different places but if all is OK from your end and you do not want the D, make him work for it.
Take care of you. I know how hard that is as well. I am still working on it.