MLC by MIL death/daughter car accident/new job

[Live4myDay]

So I was just thinking...how could I ever form a new relationship with this man? Why would I with so much that has transpired...so much hurt and betrayal. Words and actions and OW that are just hard to comprehend if I could ever really love him again. The hurt and so much pain that I have endured.

I realize that to totally detach and not detach with anger and hatred for him, I need to accept that I am NOT his WIFE and HE IS NOT MY HUSBAND. Very hard that is how I have always known him. I have to make him just another man. Reduce him to the smallest principal. Part of letting go...

There has to be so much more for me than him and what he has done. How do others who have made it back together get through it? Piecing but I think there are too many pieces to the puzzle now that don't belong like his OW and his trip to Europe. I want to hate him but I have too much love in me.