Yep, it WILL get better. Regardless of what happens with W, it will get better. You will find your old self again, and augment it with what you have learned. You will feel "normal", you will find happy. You will wake up in the morning and go a whole day without thinking about W. This is certain, it just takes time.

Acc

Married 18, Together 20, Now Divorced
M: 48, W: 50, D: 18, S: 16, D: 12
Bomb Dropped (EA, D): 7/13/11
Start Reconcile: 8/15/11
Bomb Dropped (EA, D): 5/1/2014 (Divorced)
In a New Relationship: 3/2015