Ok weekend update..
Friday night W came by. Wanted to borrow the computer and I said no. She stormed out and slammed the door on our son..
About an hour later she came back to get son. While I was getting his shoes on she walked to her car.. Then came back in with tears running down her face. I got up and gave her a very long hug. We sat down and talked a little she told me she was so lonely.. And that she misses me.
I basically just listened and comforted her.. Then I went back to her place with her.. We ended up making love.. Then we went back to my place and got work clothes and her car and I stayed with her at her place..
Saturday morning she sends me an email saying that time is not goingto get us back together, that she needs to go out and date to figure out what she wants..
That got me down so when I got off work I just went back to my place. I was running later than usual. So I didnt get home until about 45 minutes later than usual. She had called me several times before I got home. SO I returned her call and she asked me to come over. We ended up going and getting some stuff for dinner and stuff to make strawberry daqauries.. We ended up making love but afterwards she said we cant be doing this anymore.. I stayed the night at her place though.. I just rolled over an went to sleep. She layed her hand on my shoulder as if to comfort me..
She seems to be really confused..
What is going on??
I have been trying to distnce myself. To step back and take a look.. Last night she even called me on it that I was distancing myself from her..
We have a great time together when we spend time together...

Why the hell am I torturing myself.. Why cant I just walk away from this woman.. Why do I continue to let her control me and hurt me.. Jesus I have got to stop it..

Honesty, sincerity, tenderness and trust. A little less time for the rest of the world, And more for the two of us. Kisses each mornin, I love yous at night, Just like it used to be.