You are all right...all of you. Especially the ones who have tried to help me thru this...ACC...I'm looking at you!
I will be focusing on trying to detach... I don't think I have fully tried to stop saving my marriage by pursuing and pressuring. I think I try really, really hard because I know logically it's the right thing to do. Then, I last some time, get scared, lonely, insecure, and my emotions are off to the races.
This.needs.to.stop
For me.... I have to let my wife go somehow, someway. To save my sanity, and to save what little dignity I have left. Which isn't much.
I have some spring/summer sports starting son. That will help. The dog is getting walked more then she ever has, and I am talking to family, and even an old friend about how I feel, etc.
Wife is gone to parents for a week with our daughter. As much as I miss my daughter, I wish it was for a month... I think it will be a good thing to not had to see her for a week. That is when I break down, I see a glimpse of the old her, andi rush in, the emotions take over. I've been very good about not pursuing other ways, phone, email, text.
I know the universe has done this for the reason to make me a better, happier person. I need to focus on me, and daughter Bly. Wife has made her choice, she can live with it and figure her own stuff out.
I know I can do this. I just need to go hour by hour, day by day like JP says.
