After Saturdays brutal lashing I took...I honestly think she has pushed me too far. Do I want to stay married? Yes, and no. Yes I want to try and salvage my marriage, but no in that I have enough self respect to walk away when the time comes, and know I did everything I could. Why would anyone want to stay in a loveless relationship? My head finally made that connection.
In my mind, she has pushed aside any positive and significant changes I have made over the past 10 yrs, including quitting drinking. She has embraced and magnified every negative thing, no matter how small. So...yeah, I will continue to DB, but I am at the point I can move on.
As for me leaving? Not going to happen. I have tens if not hundreds of thousands invested in this property. I am not pushing myself into a hovel and giving up everything just because she says so, and living in total poverty. Its time for her to put her big girl panties on and act like an adult, and respect my rights. Its a big house, and we can easily continue to coexist under this roof, and not bother each other.
Lastly PM...OT is Occupational Therapy. She goes Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday after work. Been getting home later and later. But...at this point I dont care. I am done being manic and stressing myself out over things I can not change.
Me-45,W-36 M-12 yrs, T-15 years SS- 16 Nov 2003 Initial B date, 2-3 others since EA/PA OM 2003-2004 Reconciled 2004 May 2013 Final BD, W completely detaches W files D June 2013 I am moving out 26 July 2013
