Really need some advice, feeling down and out

[Brahmin]

You can also get this book online its called fighting for marraige, I learnt lot from it. I got a copy ebook if you pm me your email. well having said that, how will you make this relationship better. Small changes, consistent. I know porn is big in Japan as you said, I read lot of places its like crack cocain to marriage,I heard unknowingly marriages dissolve when partners get hooks onto it. Know lot of couple fall trap to this. Do you have common friends who you can go out and have fun time. Like you too and other friends. Take a vacation to Thailand or some change of scene activity. Our mind and soul needs regular nurturing. Spend money and do some thing totally different that you will both enjoy. Well don't over shoot and spend more than you can afford but look like you could efford a surprise vacation. Still wonder why are you in such a victim kind of postion, husband flat refuses kids, how will this relation grow if you don't have kids in the equation. Hope this will ease your pain, may twist your arm a bit. Well there is lot to learn and change is so slow, I almost loose hope, but I bring my vision back and say it will get better if not I know I am a better person than when I started this journey