Hi, BF. I think what would help you most is to stop putting all your energy on what you don't want: a D. You're attracting more of that negative stuff into your life. I know first hand how difficult this is, but try it. Try focusing on something else (something positive) every time the thought of D comes to you. ((((((((((()))))))))
BrightFuture this is fantastic advice from Tori2012! I truly believe that we attract things into our lives -- both good and bad. If we have depressed, negative thoughts, we will attract depressing, negative things.
It will be hard because I feel so sad and slightly panicky, but I plan to start thinking more positively immediately and invite you to do the same, my friend. I will try to think of something positive every time my H's Russian Tramp OW comes to my mind, which, unfortunately, is hourly! We can support each other! Well I won't be much help to you until I'm off moderation, but promise to follow your thread every day.
Linda
Me 65, Ex 64 M 38 y 2 adult S, 4 G-Kids MLC 11/07 BD 12/09 D 3/14 Dating nice guy 7/14 Engaged to nice guy 12/17