But now i keep getting mails sent to me with perfect matches. Yes they all look nice, and appear to be nice people.
Of course they all look like perfect matches, your M is in turmoil right now and you're hurting badly!
Don't fool yourself. The reality is all these "perfect matches" are actually imperfect people who all come with their own issues. Sure, you'll overlook them for a year or two while you both are still in Limerance, but after that it’s back to reality, where only you can make you happy. In the end, people are exactly as happy as they decide to be, no matter what’s going on in their life.
Get a copy of Viktor Frankl’s book, "Man's Search for Meaning", and you’ll see what I mean.
Hang in there buddy, you can do this!
M: A really long time. Crisis: 5 years. She's still worth it.
Life is never made unbearable by circumstances, but only by lack of meaning and purpose. -Viktor Frankl