I did the same, at about the same point as you in my sitch, so forgive yourself and get back on your plan... It's normal I think to be curious as to what the future might look like if it has to be that way...
You are correct, it is a distraction, much like the mlc'er uses the OP/whatever as a distraction from the issues and pain...
Hang in there! T^2
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm
It's normal I think to be curious as to what the future might look like if it has to be that way...
