Lost, Try to keep yourself busy throughout the day and evening.
Are you on antidepressants? They may help.
If you let yourself focus on your Sitch, you will remain stuck.
Find one thing that you enjoy (something positive) and do it, even if just for a little while.
Go sit outside in the sun, let the warmth comfort you. Clear your head and find something good to focus on.
You CAN do this.
M46,W41 D16,D18 M22,T25 BD 11/12 W moved out 01/13 Piecing 10/13 Divorced 01/15 "Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can." UrWorthy
I just feel like my life has just rolling all then all in one sec it hit a brick wall. want to go to do things but go places but dont want to be or do them alone. and it just not fair. Why oh Why dear Lord why is this happening. what is it you need me to learn...
I know i have you Lord on my side but i need you to lead me now. remove me from where im at or make me a fast learner so i can do what i need to or you need me to do.
Lost, Try to keep yourself busy throughout the day and evening.
Are you on antidepressants? They may help.
If you let yourself focus on your Sitch, you will remain stuck.
Find one thing that you enjoy (something positive) and do it, even if just for a little while.
Go sit outside in the sun, let the warmth comfort you. Clear your head and find something good to focus on.
You CAN do this.
I know this is not good for me but I enjoy and need to be in the sun outside. Dr even said vit D is way to low and b-12. But i go out side as much as i can also go to tanning place to get light there. i know it is bad but it is what i need at this point
ok just cant get past all these feelings i have for my WAW. does me wanting to keep trying to fix things with my WAW and myself for so long mean i personally have a problem? Am i being obsessed with her or is it really that i want her back.. i do miss and love her but cant stop thinking about her. i just miss what we did have and how it was up to a point
There's nothing wrong with you, we all feel that way. You're still grieving the loss of your M. The recovery timeline is different for each person.
Originally Posted By: lostforever
some times i just feel like i want to end it all i know better guys and gails just feel that way i need to get un stuck from here taake back controle
That's a red flag that you're still in deep depression. Considering your timeline (8+ months since BD) you should talk to a doctor about this. Getting depression under control is critical to your recovery. I was stuck in a place that I don't think I could have gotten out of without anti-depressants. But once the A/D's pulled me out of that place, my recovery proceeded quickly and I was able to ween off of them after a few months. My sitch does still affect me now and then, but when it does it's just a slight dip in my PMA, not the huge valley of despair it was before.
i have been on xanax and cymbulta but did feel way better 1 year ago defore i was on xanax . I was always on the other for paine not depression and i was going to dbl dose to see if it helped. I guess and i think i have told everyone here that she may have turned lesbian and i feel that is better then a guy as i can not compete with a girl. but i still have hope that for her it is a mid life thing. and i can say that the girl that was around for a year when still together that WAW was helping her get over her breakup also this girl some how got her to try it since they move in together.
I feel that if she was not around WAW then and now we would not be in this sitch. I do hate this other girl but did like her one time as she is a good person but stold my WAW.
so with that said this is part of the reason i am where i am. I am also here as i still have the need to know why she left for real. also why is she stil angry with me 14 month later. told her mom to have her look in the mirror. but anyway no matter what i have so many unknown things that I have this need to know. just dont understand but i guess one thing is i still deal with the daughter and mother and well alot of her family. but sometimes i feel that i should just run change phone number and do not let anyone from that fam know where i am what im doing. and should i just stop all contact to WAW
Nobody stole my W from me. That was a choice she made based on her feelings and thoughts. Her feelings and thoughts are what is going to bring her back if decides that is what is best for her.
To believe anything else just would make me a "victim" and I will be damned if I will allow myself to feel that way. I am NOT a victim.
“Things turn out best for the people who make the best out of the way things turn out” ― Art Linkletter
M46,W41 D16,D18 M22,T25 BD 11/12 W moved out 01/13 Piecing 10/13 Divorced 01/15 "Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can." UrWorthy
