Dear AnotherStander, So amazing that you have heard the same (now I understand) guilt talking from your WAS! It helps me to realize this and not to think it is anything else so I can continue on and work on my GAL & other DB things that will in fact & are already making me a much better and happier person. I also didn't realize it takes time for antidepressants to kick in and I really spent the first week or so taking a lot of sleeping pills to avoid being awake with the pain. I was trying to think of reasons to get really angry at my WAH also to lesson the pain. However, according to you and other things I have read, I must deal with the pain & fight my way through it - so now that I think I can handle it in small chunks, I am forcing myself to think about it and deal with it. Do you know why I can - Because of YOU and other people on this forum who have saved my life and my sanity by being such thoughtful and caring people to help a perfect stranger. Just know I have prayed to God thanking him for your help & asking him to comfort you and let you find peace also.
Me 54 H 53 T 19 M 15 (2nd both), 0 kids, 2 dogs, 1 horse H open heart surg12-12-12 H dropped bomb 3-5-13 H moved to lounge ~3-13-13 H rented house w/friend 4-6-13 H moved out 4-13-13
