DBing European Style, part 2

[Papa4Life]

Y'know, I'm starting to realize that at least part of the reason my sitch has been so difficult (perhaps others feel this way as well) is the speed with which it has all been proceeding. While I see other people separating and living about for a year or more, in our case, we went from BD to mediator in four months. Is that typical?

Today was tough, I'll be honest. Thank goodness my good friend was here. We ducked out a couple of times for some fresh air and commisseration. It was awkward being around all these people who know of the sitch and to try to act naturally. Still, it was a nice day for my S. We ended the day playing a board game before the eldest two went up to bed. Just the three of us.

I'm feeling sad. Mother's Day used to be such a sweet day with the kids. I didn't really do much, because acting any other way just feels phony. Plus I really got burned by overdoing it on Valentines Day, so this time I kind of downplayed it. W went around the table giving everybody a kiss and to my surprise I even got one. I know she just did it for the kids' benefit because I've brought up in the past how she's done that before, go around kissing everybody good-bye and then just giving me a little wave. This was probably just for show.

I'm going to give my mom a call and wish her a happy mothers day.