Moving back to the family home was an excellent decision. It is an effort - on Monday I fly to work and on Wednesday back, two more home office days on Thursday/Friday. But from Thursday to Sunday I am together with the kids. We always have a great time together.
Now the venting: on the next weekend I won't see the kids. There is a short Pentecost holiday, four days. W will take the kids to her parents with OM, the first time. We had married in that city and in the house of her parents 17 years ago. This weekend will be VERY tough for me.
None of the predictions of a weakening of W's affair with OM have materialized so far. The kids told me W would like to have a child with OM, "fortunately" she is too old for that. They are also planning to build a house. Note: neither of us has filed so far! If it's true that 90% of affairs don't last then it seems that the one of W belongs to the other 10%.
I will continue to work hard for my job, my core 180, and spend as much time together with the kids as possible. I hope that they will gravitate to me gradually as they get older without any custody fight.
People tell me how relaxed and happy I look on photos. True, I have stabilized a lot compared to last year. But I am still in the "fake it 'til you make it" stage. Often sad on the inside but plowing on with my tasks.
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