Thanks TVS and RH..I really appreciate your words and friendship. I know what I have to do..I know I have to stay positive. It can get tough some days when I feel like curling up in a ball and sobbing. Had to go back on AD's though which I have been resisting for a long time, but DR and I decided its for the best for now. H has been supportive of me with my D issues.

Wish I could be working on my M under much better circumstances. Some fun and quality time together, but so far so good, working through these challenges, I am grateful for that.

RH, we don't have a day off together generally, but H and I did play golf last week when my work day changed. He chose to do that with me instead of buddies, so again I'm grateful for these small things. We had a really nice day and forgot our problems for a few hours.