im not mad at anyone. i just understand that people are quick to judge. it doesn't surprise me. it also doesn't bother me. they don't know me and i am none to trusting of others. especially women. that is something i need to work on. this whole thing with my ex has left me very wary of women. i know that is not ok. i should just mistrust her, other women did nothing to me. thats where i am at.
i also know that i can come off as rude because i dont sugar coat things. i speak direct and to the point. i leave no question to what im thinking. i despised when my ex would speak in riddles to me. im not good at reading between the lines. i see thing in black and white. also something i am working on. trying to see the grey areas.
i agree with SD that is interesting how others view me. it baffles me to an extent. my ex used to think i was mad all the time because of how my face looked my counselor said the same thing. i guess i am cursed with that. my father and my brothers get the same things said to them. we have deep set eyes and high cheek bones. that lends to a scary expression i am told. we also dont smile if there is nothing to smile about. straight faced alot. i understand how people think im rude when i dont speak and my face looks the way it does. i cant do alot about my bone structure, but i can try to smile more. and open up.
