I completely hear what you're saying M1. The catch is that I cannot talk about the future with her because she has said she still needs time for her journey of self and improvement. It's still a touchy subject so I'm avoiding talking about it a lot. I'm waiting for her to introduce the topic when she's ready.
I've been trying to be more loose with the present. It's been tough. It's a balance between making the most of my time away and ensuring a responsible life after the military.
