kevin, you have some good advice, and I agree with Lyrael and everything he said. One thing, you haven't acted perfectly, but neither has she. Don't take responsibility for what she says and does. The thing you need most right now is emotionally stability and good dose of self-esteem. You need that for yourself and your son. You can never, ever control what she does...but you can make an impact on her by pulling yourself up, taking time to get yourself together, and do not get drawn into any of these fights anymore. The worst thing that can happen to you, and anyone else IMO, is to lose your wit, pride, self-awareness through all of this mess, and we all do at some point when going through this. But you have been going through this for a long time now, and you are tired I am sure. It is time to work on yourself...it's kind of like exercise, I have to make myself sometimes do it...but I always feel better in the long run. Every time you don't give in and live your own life, you will be proud of yourself. Regardless of what happens with your M, you have to remain a healthy minded person. Don't pursue, don't call to ask where you stand, don't ask her about OM. Just live your life, starting now, one day at a time, and you will know when she is ready to give it another try or you are ready to move on. Don't push either right now.
