I don't know UW... Is he baking up nicely, or half - baked? Lol!
I like your analogy with the doorway. I get it.
I think where once he was so sure about his happiness with OW, now he's questioning some things. But, still not ready to do anything different. He's not strong enough yet.
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Well, kids didn't get the memo... It's the weekend, you can sleep in!
H rolls in at 2:30 last night. He pulled car in the garage (usually parks in driveway and comes in front door when he comes in late), then actually comes upstairs to change.
I was half asleep. He turned on lamp, then took a shower. This is new!
I fell back asleep, and woke up with him standing over me by the bed. It startled me, made me jump lol! He rubs my arm, and said he just wanted to tell me that he was home. Said he was sorry he woke me, and that he jumped in shower because it was so smoky in bar and he felt gross. He then pulled covers up, tucked me in, gave my arm a final rub, then said good night and went downstairs.
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A few hours later, he comes up to bed. Says he is very itchy again. He turns on lamp, and his back and arms are all red from him clawing at himself. He had me scratch his back, then turned off lamp and went to sleep.
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As always, who knows what is going on in that brain. No doubt he has some guilt going on. Interesting how his behaviors have morphed a bit. Almost like replay behaviors without the teenager twist. (Parking in driveway, sneaking in front door, staying downstairs away from "mom").
Got my chair out for the show, have no idea what's going to happen next. Mimosas for everybody!!!
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."
