I really stepped on it, and am asking for help

[SFC_Swede]

PS...I am a loser when it comes to this. I have fought in every conflict since the 1st Gulf War. Just a little over a year ago, I was kicking Afghans in the pants to get them to move forward against the Taliban under fire. But my W turns me to jello.

Sad, I know.

Yes, she and I both have tattoos. Not sleeves or anything, but tactically placed ones that you usually cant see unless we are in bathing suits.

I confronted her on the $11K that mysteriously appeared. She took out a loan on her 401K to pay off all our debt, and to streamline the finances so she and S can stay in this house. She wants me to bank what income I have coming in from my PT job so I can move on.

Basically I backslid again talking about the R. Her walls are up indomitably. She has completely cut off any feelings for me, and basically said that in a week or two, if she hasnt changed her mind, she will present the divorce papers to me for signature.

I honestly think this is done. You dont know her...she is stubborn, and once she makes up her mind doesnt change it. She hasnt talked to her father in years because he hurt her.

HELP!