It is an awakening after a D. My first one ended badly, but people who I previously raved about me, and whom I treated as if they were my own family took the XW side even though they knew full well what was going on.
Even my XMIL poisoned the well with my kids as they grew up. I treated this woman with nothing but respect and love...and thats how she repaid me.
Lesson...D's are messy things. You are holding up well. Be strong and keep your S in your heart, because I can tell you...in the end, thats all that really matters other than your safety and happiness.
Me-45,W-36 M-12 yrs, T-15 years SS- 16 Nov 2003 Initial B date, 2-3 others since EA/PA OM 2003-2004 Reconciled 2004 May 2013 Final BD, W completely detaches W files D June 2013 I am moving out 26 July 2013