Have been mulling the weekend's events over in my mind all week. I have been putting too much effort lately into trying to get XW's attention in some way, and not enough into rebuilding my life. I am happy with the changes I made to my personality (less anger and anxiety), my work-life balance ( I now rearrange my work to support S as much as possible, rather than leaving it to XW), and my free time (I work out now, and look for opportunities to hang out with friends). What I have been disappointed by, is that my XW seems to have not noticed and still appears to desire no contact with me other than essential parenting interactions.

But that's her choice, and I am much happier with myself than I was last year at this time. I guess I'm just now at the point where I really feel single and am wondering what I do next.


H: 38 xW: 38
M: 16 T: 18
S: 9
BD: 2/2012
W moved out 4/2012
D: 11/2012