Not confused...trying to keep hope alive!!!

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My guess is that your feelings are tied to his still.

AJ - I don't disagree with much on here, but I will with this one. My feelings are tied to my kids. S9 was the one who told me of the events with his Dad, and when I saw his little face light up and the twinkle in his eyes and the pure joy he had, I couldn't help but hear the change in H. But the change did not benefit me, it benefited MY child. And yes, I guess in turn benefited me to see S9 with a moment of happiness.

Sorry to disagree. But I feel really detached these days, maybe not 100%, but more than I actually even want to be. But I know that is part of the process.

As for the rest, I would be encouraging when he does things with the kids.

I do agree with this, and like this thought. Maybe this would help with that communication issue we brought up before, give H and/or I some comfort level to be able to talk. As you said, I am not going to go out of my way, but I will encourage this type of communication. Thanks for that.

Have a nice day everyone...it is a beautiful day where I am today. Wish I wasn't stuck in the office working.