AS, great advice on fear of loneliness. Because I have to admit, that is probably my biggest fear. Not just losing my family, but not being accepted by anyone. I do fear I am too old, used up, and not attractive.
Not to mention...I look around at the women in my immediate age range and its not something that interests me. Not to sound shallow, but I'm just not attracted to them for various reasons (why is everyone in my area over 40 grossly overweight for example). And then they all seem to have kids. Sorry, but I have been raising children since I was 18. I took care and sacrificed for my 3 from 1M, and raised my SS as my own since I met him at 6 months old in 2M. I just want to have fun and enjoy what time I have left...I just fear doing it alone.
I know...many, many contradictions.
Me-45,W-36 M-12 yrs, T-15 years SS- 16 Nov 2003 Initial B date, 2-3 others since EA/PA OM 2003-2004 Reconciled 2004 May 2013 Final BD, W completely detaches W files D June 2013 I am moving out 26 July 2013
