Remember as always to use what I have to say as a springboard for any associations, connections or "aha!" feelings...ignore what seems out of it...
Quote: I dreamed that Wolfie and I were driving around (in a place we both used to live at in real-life). He had just returned from being somewhere and we hadn't seen each other for awhile. We decided to go home--we were living in an apartment overlooking the water.
Okay, Tal, what associations can you make to this place you "used to live at"? The real place...was it where you lived pre A...when things were better between you? Worse?
My hunch is that this place might just be representing the "Place your M used to be at"...or at least the feelings of wholeness, connection, newness, discovery....
Again YOU are the one who must make the connections...
Interesting that Wolfie "has just come back" from "elsewhere"...Um...hasn't he figuratively and literally just done that in real life??
And here "Home" is an apartment overlooking the water...water is a symbol of LIFE itself.
Any recollections as to the state of the water? Calm, pleasant, roiling, threatening...feelings associated?
Quote: As we hadn't seen each other for awhile--we started getting busy right away--were having right there in the living room. I gotta say...it was pretty hot, too . All of the sudden I hear people talking and noises around us. I realize there is a crew of people filming us!!!!! Wolfie tells me that it's part of a birthday surprise for me to make this little porn movie... so I said--give me that tape...I don't want to see this floating around the internet!!!
Sounds like a renewal of passion to me...
Now about the film crew...I know it seems screwy but its NOT!!!
What is a film crew but a tangible symbol of making your connection VISIBLE to everyone...PROOF that you are "connected"...
Your first inclination is to snafu the tape...you don't want it broadcast on the internet (a link to internet aspects of the A...things you've discovered on line?...or just a symbol of "going public".
Quote: Then it gets even weirder...we get dressed and my whole family shows up for this surprise birthday party. Wolfie and I are in our bathrobes at this point..and the film crew is packing up. My parents start going on about wasn't that a cool surprise that Wolfie came up with to have that birthday porn movie made!!! My mom is going on about what a sweet and thoughtful thing that is...and I am thinking... OMG, I can't believe MY PARENTS KNOW ABOUT THAT AND THINK IT'S SO COOL AND ARE TALKING ABOUT IT LIKE THAT!!!
You're still in bathrobes (nudity, if not accompanied by embarassment indicates having nothing to hide!!!), and the whole family is BEHIND this "porno"...a symbol for Wolfie being more "open and concrete" about his committment to you??? (getting it on tape)
Everyone admiring the Christmas lights...same feeling...approval for the R.
Quote: We are about to go back up into the apartment, but at the bottom of the stairs, I find our kitten (in real life, we don't have one). The kitten has been hit by a car or something, but is still alive and suffering. I know I'm going to have to have it put to sleep...but everyone else wants to go out to dinner and I started getting mad at all of them for being insensitive about the poor, hurt kitten. End of dream.
I LOVE LOVE LOVE this part...although it's the most poignant.
Honey, I think this wounded kitten is YOU, or part of you that HAS been "run over by a car"...that is still injured.
Interesting that no one else seems too concerned about it...and YOU are outraged at their insensitivity.
So.....a dream with many messages...
Getting "back" to better times, Wolfie making public and official his committment and passion for you, family support...full steam ahead!!!
Except for the part(s) that are still wounded...Do they need more attention, concern and healing from those around you? Or are you telling yourself it's time to "put that hurt to sleep?"
