Whenever I am feeling particularly hurt and/or bewildered by H's behaviors, I give myself a pep talk, and remind myself that he must be in an extraordinary amount of pain to be so self-destructive. No one in their right mind would do the things they do. It's sad, it really is.
And MLC anniversaries svck!
I don't think you're messed up at all - just weathering the storm any way you can
Hang in there, you are awesome girl!!!
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."