AnotherStander, Thank you so much for the insight. It is so frightening to do this DBing to me - u are 100% right - every time I do what used to work, it gets worse. I just am still so distraught - it is so so SO HARD. I guess I should be happy with no response for now instead of a negative one, which is what is happening when I falter & try to reach out. What is worse is that I am getting attention from a lot of guys which would feel good except they are all not the person I love - my WAH, so I go from happy & flirting with these guys to 5 min later when I am alone hysterically sobbing because I just want my H back. WAH said he is "At Peace" now. He rented a house with a guy who works for him who has a daughter in high school. He said his blood pressure is down. That made me a little angry because it felt like he was blaming me. We argued a little but we didn't have big fights. So I texted him back that I was happy and was having a lot of fun & made a few close friends. I kind of liked getting angry because it made me stop crying & miss him less. But he always texts back some super nice thing like "You deserve to be happy. You are the nicest person I know -(Blah Blah Blah)". Why would a WAH say that nice stuff? To make the pain worse? I hate it because it does make it worse. I am so confused and wonder if I need lithium because I go from happy to crying in seconds. Do you know of anyone else like this - or should I go to a psychiatrist? I am on Cymbalta for depression ready. Please help oh wise one(s) on this DB forum.
Me 54 H 53 T 19 M 15 (2nd both), 0 kids, 2 dogs, 1 horse H open heart surg12-12-12 H dropped bomb 3-5-13 H moved to lounge ~3-13-13 H rented house w/friend 4-6-13 H moved out 4-13-13
