I definitely wasn't trying to use it to spy on her. I have now realized that I am MUCH happier not knowing what she is up to. I don't even inquire when the opertunity is easy.

Perhaps it was a small amount of devaluing of her time, but not like I meant her time was not important therefore she could take daugter. It was more along the lines of, "I am trying not to care what she does".


Journaling:

Yesterday, daughter and I worked until almost dark out in the yard. We have everything spruced up, manicured and trimmed. We even spent some time doing some container planting with anuals. Our home looks GREAT! Therefore, we are inviting over a bunch of new faces to help trash the place, several of which are also going through separations or recently divorced. We will have a movie night for the kids and BBQ and coctails for the adults. Bound to be good times.

A strange conversation with W this morning. I am not sure entirely how to take it. She phoned, upbeat saying," Hi how are you doing". Then she proceeded to ask about our joint vehicle insurance policy. It is coming up for renewal and she thought, being a newly licensed agent, she would price shop it. Here is the thing, she wishes to keep it a joint policy due to the price being so much lower. I have mixed feelings. First, is she being nice and cheery just because she wants to keep the lower insurance cost? Secondly, should I allow it to continue even though she is wishing to be completely separated from my in all other regards? Yesterday she asked me to visit her bank and sign off on her vehicle because she secured financing and wanted to get my name off of it. Originally I cosigned to get a better interest rate. To be honest, I am almost surprised she was able to secure a loan. I am REALLY tempted to take her off the insurance policy all together because THIS feels like doormatting.


Me:46 Her:38
My D: 11
Her S: 8