I really stepped on it, and am asking for help

[SFC_Swede]

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So as the M rolled on we had our good times and bad times. I deployed again and all went well. I did however start chewing tobacco during this time. At first she said nothing, but over time it became an issue. I know, I know...great, another addiction. I would try and quit and then start again. Each time he found out I hurt her trust and faith a little more.

Now during all this time, I had completely changed who I was as an H. I was a true father to my SS, put them both before myself, had no other friends, and listened and was there for her 110% of the time.

In 2010 I deployed to Afghanistan and stayed there for two years. In a lot of ways, our R was better than ever before. I was making killer cash due to my rank and time in service...so finances werent a problem, I was confident and trusting with her, ect. And then I got hurt. I stayed and got wounded again. I refused medevac, and stayed again. Then I got wounded a third time. I stayed in theater, but was put on a desk the rest of my tour and I returned in 2012.

When I got back I was medically evaluated and found not fit for duty. Because of my age, time in service, and rank...I was discharged rather than moved to another less impactful job. So with an Honorable Discharge, a Security Clearance, and supposedly employers hiring Veterans I was depressed but not down for the count. My W was supportive and we were moving forward as always.

But as time went on, and application for employment werent answered, and it looked more and more like I wasnt going to be able to find a job that paid anything close to what I was used to making, let alone benefits...I descended further in depression. It didnt help that I filed a claim with all supporting documents to the Veterans Administration and they have dragged their feet all the way to giving me a disability rating.

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