Ok, I think I'm better now. My mind seems pretty clear this morning. Man these ups & downs really do stink!

No conversation with H really. He doesn't eat dinner with us & keeps himself busy with work all through the evening. He will go to the girls bedroom after I've tucked them in & tell them goodnight. Can't help but to think this isn't much for a man who says he is still here is because of the kids. His problem, not mine. I've been enjoying the evenings with my daughters acting as if he isn't even there. Not towards the girls, just in my head.

Here's to today…keeping the attitude positive & strong.


M 34
H 35
D 7 D 6
M 10 T 14
Pregnant w/ boy/girl twins-due 12/2013
BD 12/15/12