Does anybody ever get to the point where you are not sure what is a 180 anymore?

I just had to sit and really think of how I used to be, and if what I am doing is a 180 or a 360. I am not really sure if what i am trying to explain makes complete sense!

Me: 38 W: 35
M: 9Yrs T: 15Yrs
S8 D5
BD: Feb 13
Still Living Together

I feel like I'm in thick forest, I'm slowly drawing a map of the way out, but not sure yet which side of the forest I will emerge.