snodderly, Thank you for your kind words... they mean a lot...... yes I will start a new thread.. I figured I was getting up there since I am on page 12...
Oh yes she has been dreading the the big 40 ever since she turned 39... and the last month it's all she has been talking about.. being 40.. how she just wants to crawl into a hole and not even celebrate it..
I am having trouble being nice to her when I know she is still running to him. But I know from reading what others have posted on here it's a common thing. It's just what they do.
She has been saying a lot of the typical MLC sayings... the confusion.. the feeling of being lost.... only feeling like half herself... I'm finally starting to learn how to listen to her.. and try to make it all about her. I myself feel extremely alone in my journey.... to my family and friends they think I am crazy if I show her any sort of sympathy or compassion. Before the BD they all loved her and thought she was an amazing person... but because of her actions then, and now they feel she should be dead and gone to me.. If it wasn't for this board I would probably be feeling the same way. But recently I can see my old W... only get a glimpse.....but I know she is in there.. I just hope she finds her way out.... and that I am still here to welcome her back..
I know my journey is still very new and have a long ways to go before she comes out of this.. if ever. Thanks again for all your help..
M-39 W-41 T-9yrs BD-Dec 2012 “regardless of your choices and the fact that they may have caused me to experience painful emotions, I still love you because I recognize the purpose of our journey.”
